Any followers of this blog will know that I’ve had an extremely tough time losing this weight.
I’ve come to realize that I have a pretty serious food addiction. I’m talking it’s time for the intervention type food addiction. I want to come home tomorrow to a room full of people who are crying and reading thoughts scribbled down on a little yellow piece of paper describing how much they care for me. I need it man. This addiction is real. It’s no joke.
I’ve had addictions before. I was addicted to chewing tobacco for around 8 years. That was extremely difficult to give up but one day I just dropped it cold turkey and haven’t had a relapse since. That battle gives me hope. I know this food addiction is much stronger than any nicotine addiction could ever be though. I eat when I’m sad. I eat when I’m happy. I eat when I’m stressed. I eat when I get anxious. I eat when I’m nervous. I eat to celebrate things. I turn to food constantly. I can’t seem to stay on a diet for more than a few days at a time.
My mother died when I was 7 years old. I remember the first thing I did was ask to go to McDonalds. I drowned out my sadness with 3 happy meals that day. I was skinny back then. That single event sparked a life long battle with food addiction. My mother’s death has shaped who I am today. Unfortunately, not all of it is good.
It’s time to have my “cold turkey” moment though. I remember tossing my Skoal (half full can) right out the window while driving one day (Yes, that’s littering, I’m sorry). I just said to myself, “Now’s the time, let’s do this” and you know what? I did it! I’m ready for that moment now, but this time with my food addiction. I’ve said the “let’s do this” line a million times, and each time it fizzles out after a few days. So obviously this will be harder than nicotine, but I know it can be done. I just need to start getting on a roll. A few good weeks of doing the right thing and I’ll be hooked and on my way to losing a ton of weight. I’m hoping that moment begins right now.
It’s crazy to think I have an addiction. But I now realize that it’s real, it’s serious, and eventually it could be deadly. My body is starting to hate my extra weight. I feel like I have symptoms of pre-diabetes. My knees are hurting more and more each day. Getting up off the ground is no longer easy. I feel like I’m aging faster than I should be. It’s all because of my weight. It’s all because of food.
It’s time to fight back. I want to prove to everyone out there that it can be done. Right now I’m pretty much at my lowest point and I’m going to fight back with a vengeance. One day I’ll be Rocky Balboa jumping up and down with my arms in the air. A victory. A victory over one stubborn-ass opponent.
The turkey has been consumed. Along with a whole bunch of other crap.
I’m jumping on the health train in the morning. I have a company wide retreat in California at the end of January and I’d like to drop 20 to 30 lbs. I have two months to do it so if I can start getting serious about my diet then I think I can achieve it.
I’ll finally implement my 80% paleo idea that I mentioned in my last post and will finally start getting that scale to move in the right direction. I plan on taking daily walks and beginning a light strength training routine as well. I’m sure I’m back up to 283 or 284 so I really need to get on plan and motivated. This retreat in January is the perfect thing to help get me motivated to drop some pounds.
Happy Thanksgiving everyone!
So in the spirit of The Primal Blueprint’s 80/20 rule, I’m going to attempt to cut out grains, gluten, and processed foods MOST of the time. I can’t commit to a 100% paleo lifestyle (although I would love to) but I can at least make a strong attempt at cleaning up my diet.
Yesterday I kept 2 out of 3 meals paleo friendly. Today only one meal wasn’t paleo compliant. So I’m going to keep this momentum up and slowly start to consume mostly meats, fresh veggies, fruits, nuts, and some dairy. I recently picked up a nutribullet and have been throwing in some fresh fruits, veggies, chia seeds, and coconut milk and these shakes have been really good. I like to replace a meal or two a day with a nutrient packed meal replacement shake. Calories still end up being 1,600 to 2,000 but I like not having to think about calories for a meal or two, and all of the ingredients are paleo friendly.
The reason I’m committing to 80% is because once in a while I just want a freaking sandwich, haha. I NEED bread every once in a while. I don’t need it every day, but every once in a while it’s nice to eat. If the majority of the time I am eating clean and exercising I think I will have excellent success.